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A day like today -{--<3---> [09 Jun 2004|12:21am]
[ mood | Not Happy ]

Today was a beautiful day. I saw so much through my swollen eyes. I almost wonder if there could ever be a heavan with days like today. I Like to sit and watch people on days like today. I watch them in there everyday rountine. With my swollen eyes I stare. There is nothing that could ever possibly bother me on days like today, except,of course, for my lack of feeling. I think of things so imposible on days like today. I wonder if one day I will Become something stronger and more powerful to let the little people win. Days like today make my heart happy. As the rain falls on my swollen eyes I laugh with a happy heart. I almost wonder If I could be any happier? I watch lovers on days like today, and I wonder if there muse has left them too? I watch Children on days like today, and I want to go back and be them for one more day like today. A sad child breaks my heart as he walks around on a day like today, with his head low dressed all in black. Today was not a beautiful day, not a happy one at that. Today was a day that I shall never see with my swollen eyes again. Days like today make me want to lock myself in my room and Cry with my swollen eyes till I see another moon. Another day may pass and another moon may shrink But for days like today? They sure do STINK!

I lost my muse, And I know he is. But Our relationship will never be the same. He is busy living his life and I am living in hell.

*I wish God would give me a sign, Just one. That's all I need.*

"We are only put here as toys. So we were only made for entertainment. But I wonder if the tickets are expensive or if they let people in for free and only charge for Beer?"

-With a face like that who needs silly puddy?-
<3 Kristen <3

CrAcKa LaCkA mUcH?

It's a sign [04 Jun 2004|07:22pm]
Today I walked outside. I lit up my Cigarette and Started pacing. I couldn't stop thinking about him. He is stuck in my head. Everywhere I go... He's there. It's just weird to think that he can be everywhere. Last night at the clubs. He was there. Yesterday at Starbucks. He was there. It almost seems like He never left. I have this sad feeling every morning. It doesn't go away, Almost as if, I would be happy if I got to hold his hand again. I just want to be able to hear his voice. See his face. Read his mind through his eyes. I just want to be able to kiss him and tell him face to face that I love him more than anything! It's sad but true. Without my boy.. All colors turn to BLue.

<3 Kristen Kiernan Cunnien
CrAcKa LaCkA mUcH?

Everything is Everything [28 May 2004|10:48am]
Timing Is Everything

That is one of my favorite quotes from my favorite movie. Love and sex.

It reminds me of Me and Chris. We are best friends and lovers.

He called me this morning. At 9Am. I was soo happy to talk to him. I started crying when he called. He was so cute. You could tell we missed eachother. I mean 4 days of not being able to talk to another person? that sucks! I miss him.

I told him about all the drama going around. and he said to take everything with a grain of salt, pretty much. I told him that I saw troy and Shrek 2. They are both good movies. I am so happy he is back. I have been soo depressed it's crazy!!! I love that boy. It really sucks not to eb able to talk to him for 4 days! And you know what?.. even though I am not beautiful or perfect, I am going to try my hardest to make him happy. And I WILL make him happy. Dispite everyone else who think I am a Disgrace. I will show you ALL what a real relationship is with REAL LIVE LOVE! And when I am growning old with my HUSBAND, All I will know is that the man beside me has been with me through thick and thin. And THEN I will know what TRUE happiness will be.

Chris, I love you, no matter what!

<3 Kristen Cunnien
CrAcKa LaCkA mUcH?

... H.S.B.S. ... [27 May 2004|12:50am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Dear Jackie,
Wait a second...


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I AM DONE HUH?... [25 May 2004|05:46pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Your calling me hideous? pfft... ok so maybe I am ... Yea I am Kinda ugly..

Atleast I have someone who loves me hideous or not, FAT OR SKINNY, SMART OR DUMB, BITCHY OR NOT. And you know what? You don't! Not to rub that in your face miss... "I want to get married soo bad that when I bought this ring I bought an engagement ring with it... I married myself hahahah"

You don't get it Jackie. No one fucking likes a sore looser... let's all feel sorry for little miss "I lost my baby" jackie. Hmm I guess I'm "done" now huh? Whatcha gonna do go tell your mommy? the cop? OOOOH... oh no.. let mom fight your battle.

AND How dare you say that me a Chris will not last, you fucking self centered bitch. So we aren't gonna last long huh? Could you also tell me how long america will last? or this planet? Or how about or lives? so that was a dumb comment to make, maybe you should think before you type? hmm?

So you know what? I am glad that you think I am an ugly waste of a person.. cause obviously I send it right back at ya!



Kristen Kiernan Cunnien

OHHH p.s. oh.. and you calling me a heartless bitch... does what? I am a Heartless bitch! so whatcha gonna do about it? sooo ill go on my own heartless way, peace

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Wedding pics that aren't crunked up! [25 May 2004|01:49pm]
This is the acutal wedding

This is extra zoom on our hands when he is putting the ring on

These are my girls .. plus me

Dana looking like a model and crap like that

Chris with his Uncle and his Father

Me before the wedding

Me and my Dad walking down the Isle

Me and Alex

My Beautiful Husband!

me And my mommy

Those are the pictures for real. Isn'y my husband cute? I love it!
But i guess that everyone thinks that i think i am better than them so whatever i got 23 days till i peace this shit! soo.. for all you haters!

Fuck off!

<3 Kristen Cunnien
I love you Chris Cunnien
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HMMMMM... Let me think.... ok got it! [25 May 2004|07:21am]
I can not wait to go to Washington to get outta this hell hole. There are people I am going to miss like crazy! and then some that I will not miss at all.. actually there are some I will be GLAD to get away from.

You know it amazes me how people can be such bitches to me when I do shit for them all the time. Well It seems that I got used and that m istake will not happen again. MARK MY WORDS!

Oh and I guess I judge people too much? WELL I'M SORRY, KNOCK YOURSELF OUT. THAT GUYS IS sooooooooooooo HOTTTTTTTTTT.... PLEASE PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU.. GO FOR HIM.. GET AN STD. PLEASE, PLEASE!!!!!.. Oh I'm sorry were you expecting me to be ok with a drunk guy kissing you? oh... maybe I shouldn't care about you. sorry my mistake!

It's not my fault that your in love with an idea that will never happen. You might as well just forget it, love, maybe you should reevaluate what it means to you and what it means to other people. Because in September you are gonna have a rude awakening. And ALL I am going to do is laugh in your face!

Get a life and get some friends.

Now this could be really mean but I figured I would make it a little nicer since I don't want to break that shallow heart of yours! Have fun with your imaginary boy and your imaginary life. Since it is soooo good, maybe you should keep dreeming.

HMMMM... I guess I actually DID judge you and I was just a TOTAL bitch to you. So now.. YES I guess we shouldn't speak anymore since I am sooo damn hard to get along with. Fuck off.... since that's the only fucking words you can say. Stupid bitch, I hope you get your tongue infected and you are never able to speak again. WON'T HURT MY FEELINGS....

The only thing that I am really loosing is Becky's friendship and that makes me sad. I am sorry becky I love you and I know you probably hate me for posting that. But I had to let it out. cause it is all true and that's how I FEEL! SORRY!

WELL peace! off to Kevan's tonite to see the Lightening Win the FUCKING CUP!

love to my home boy in Washington... I will be there soon and I love you, only 23 days.

Fuck ya'll Peace, you won't remember me in 5 years why should I sweat ya'll!

"I'd just wounder how make up sex with you would be like MmMm lol"

<3 Kristen Cunnien
I love you Chris Cunnien

OH.. (p.s.) My mother is really mad at you, I knwoy uo don't care becuase you could give 2 shits about who you disrespect. But yes she is mad at you, she told me to tell you then next time you want to leave a message on my phone in which you are cussing. Maybe you should tell your mother first and hopefully she smakcs the shit outta you... Just to let you know you are no longer aloud in my house or car.
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CHRIS [24 May 2004|01:57am]
If there is one person you cant stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

<3 Kristen
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I passed [17 May 2004|08:54pm]
I passed my math exam!

Well I am out.. and Chris is out to sea so I am going to be really depressed for the next couple of days.

My parents are getting a divorce...

nuff said..

I love you chris with all my heart... I am glad I will be with you soon.

<3 Kristen Cunnien
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EXAMS!!!! [12 May 2004|08:00pm]

I die.
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Hmmmm... [10 May 2004|07:49pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Well, today was interesting... didn't go to school... talked to Jeremy and he told me that I should have invited him. Then steve got bitchy! then... well I dunno it hasn't happend yet. Well me and dana are thinking about making our lj's able to be seen only by our friends.. but we aren't sure cause I want chris to be able to see my lj.

Well life is life...

don't you hate it when a person bites your ear?

Dana- "ewwwww, Kristen just bit my ear!"
Kristen- "no I didn't!"

Love you boo
<3 Kristen Cunnein

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YAY! FRANK-AY! [08 May 2004|02:19pm]
This entry has been edited for your entertainment!.... or whatever...

Well last night was fun! well mostly.. Me and Dana stayed at Franks and had a lotta fun! I missed Chris like the whole time but i tried not to let that slow me down... I called him at like 4am and left such a pathetic message.. I was like.... "I miss you.. i love you.. bla bla bla.." and I promised myself that i wouldn't call him in the morning... WELL... I didn't call him.. he called me which makes me happy cause now i know he likes to talk to me.. or so i think.

Last night was kinda Dramatic for us though. and creepy... but i am not aloud to talk about anything because everything i say is bad and everything i do i get in trouble for.. DRAMA!

I am happy for dana, I am glad she is trying to find a way to be happy. I just hope that one day everyone is happy with everything.. and everyone just stoppes trying to please EVERYONE! people need to be happy with themselfs before they can even begin to worry about making other people happier!

" You're welcome private... NOW SCRUB THE DECKS!... WITH A TOOTHBRUSH! ... AND MUSTARD! ..... ??? "

*edited ersion*
"i hate girls. always think they know shit." - Good girl Dana

With love to my boo.. I Heart you.. Chris
Kristen Cunnien
CrAcKa LaCkA mUcH?

YAY pictures [03 May 2004|07:53pm]
Here are some cute pics of Me and the OLD MAN I will get more!

Me and Chris after wedding

Me and Chris at the wedding

My Bling

Me and Chris in hotel after wedding

I love this!
<3 Kristen Cunnein
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*sigh* [28 Apr 2004|07:32pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

As I sit here I think about everything that has happend in the last month.
1) I lost one of my dear friends to Taylor Precort.
2) I found out I had to set up a wedding in 2 weeks
3) I got to see the love of my life and my best friend for the first time in 104 days.
4) I married my best friend.
5) I lost my best friend/ Husband to the Navy once again.
6) I realized how much it sucks without him.

I guess I fall more inlove with him everytime I see him or talk to him. It is soo depressing to know that the person you want to spend the rest of your life with is 2970 miles away.

I feel like such a bad wife and bad best friend when I get sad talking to him or get depressed. I feel like he thinks it is his fault. But it isn't.. It is my fault. It's me. I feel like I am going to fail at being a wife. I know that I love him but I am not sure if I am good enough for him or not.

I seems to be a little bit late for that, I know. But Why can't I make him happy? I always feel so stupid.. cause I say the wrong thing. I feel like Jessica Simpson about the whole " I don't eat Buffulo" thing.

I am probably just being a retard and I know I am.. but it makes me feel like shit to know that there is probably someone out there that is such a better match for Chris. And he settled for me.

"I dunno what to say I try my best to make you happy"

<3 Kristen (a girl that can't even save herself)

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MARRIED! [24 Apr 2004|09:22pm]
I am so married to the most amazing person In the world! OMG, I don't care what anyone says, my life is amazing right now! My Hubby!!!! I miss him soo much already and he left yesterday.... we almost didn't make it to the plane ontime... he had like 5 mins to get on the plane and I didn't even get to kiss him good-bye.. But oh well..I still love him.... OH omg! he had to pee soo bad on I-275 so he pee'd into a cooler in my car! AHH how crazy? Oh how I love my boy! What a good boy I have. I had the most amazing time with him, just hanging out with hima nd his family was one of the best times of my life. OH and his father is my BFF we are sooo best friends and shit. I told Chris that if anything happends to him that I am soo marrying his dad. I Will have to be a hone wrecker! WELL kidos, I am going to bed now, but I really happy and I excited about Chris and I's future together. I HEART CHRIS!

" You have a lisp.. don't you hate the person who put the letter "s" in the word lisp?"

Chris and Kristen Cunnien
04-17-04 - foooorrreeevvvveerrrrrrrr (Sandlot style)
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A thing, or 2, about moi.... [06 Apr 2004|09:40pm]
:x: name = Kristen
:x: piercings = Ears
:x: tattoos = 1
:x: height = 5 4
:x: shoe size = 7 1/2 to 8
:x: hair color = black
:x: length = medium
:x: siblings = Donnie

:x: movie you rented = 10 things i hate about you.. damn i still owe late fees
:x: movie you bought = lost in translation
:x: song you listened to = with you
:x: song that was stuck in your head = the cops theme
:x: cd you bought = don't remember
:x: cd you listened to = Jessica Simpson
:x: person you've called = Chris
:x: person that's called you = Chris
:x: You touched = my mother
:x: You talked to = Mom
:x: You hugged = Mom
:x: You instant messaged = Roger
:x: You kissed = My mom
:x: You yelled at = My mom
:x: You laughed with = Chris
:x: tv show you've watched = American Idol
:x: person you were thinking of = Chris

:x: you have a bf or gf = YES
:x: you have a crush on someone = YES
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = Washington state with Chris
:x: you think about suicide = at times
:x: you believe in online dating = yeah
:x: others find you attractive = at times
:x: you want more piercings = yes
:x: you drink = yep
:x: you do drugs = NO!ha
:x: you smoke = yep
:x: you like cleaning = when im in the mood
:x: you like roller coasters = love em
:x: you write in cursive or print = print
:x: you carry a donor card = yes

:x: long distance relationships = for
:x: using someone = against
:x: killing people = against
:x: teenage smoking= for
:x: premarital sex = for
:x: driving drunk = ehhh
:x: gay/lesbian relationship = for
:x: soap operas = against

:x: food = mac and cheese and .... hmmmm
:x: song = "all i want is bang bang bang"
:x: thing to do = .. stuff
:x: thing to talk about = my boy
:x: sports = hahahaha
:x: drink = sex on the beach
:x: clothes = my old AE jeans! Steve hates them hahaha
:x: movies = 10 things i hate about you, sleepy hollow, pirates of the caribbean, girl interupted!
:x: band/singer = the start.. britney spears
:x: holiday = Christmas
:x: new nerdy saying = Whatever, WHOA calm down tiger!

:x: ever cried over a guy/girl = yeah
:x: ever lied to someone = yeah
:x: ever been in a fist fight = no
:x: ever been arrested = no

:x: of times I have been in love? = 2
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = 1
:x: of hearts I have broken? = 2
:x: of girls I have kissed? = 3
:x: of boys I have kissed? = hmm.. 24?
:x: of drugs taken illegally? = haha.....
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life = Chris, dana and my mom
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = 1 maybe 2
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = several times
:x: of scars on my body? = many
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = A LOT

:x: disney movie = Cinderella
:x: scent = Love spell
:x: word = Fork, elbow
:x: nickname = Krissy-ten
:x: eye color = Blue
:x: flower = Rose, or sunflower
:x: piercing = lip or tongue
:x: actress/actor = Lucille Ball

:x: pretty = no
:x: funny = sumtimes
:x: hot = no
:x: friendly = at times
:x: amusing = yeah
:x: ugly = kinda
:x: loveable = yes
:x: pessimistic = eh
:x: optimistic = eh
:x: caring = yes
:x: sweet = yes
:x: dorky = Hell YEA!
CrAcKa LaCkA mUcH?

Chris [06 Apr 2004|04:02pm]
Chris will be here in 9 days!!!! how awesome?!?!

** Austin... How dare you say anything to me about my wedding? How dare you say one word to me about how I want to live my life? I have always stuck up for you, even when I shouldn't have. And you just throw this in my face and say that you don't want to come to my wedding? Well then you know what? I don't want you there if you are going to cause me grief! I love you Aug, but right now I don't like you! **
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Me Time [31 Mar 2004|08:21pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

So lately I have been pretty depressed. Chris is out to sea for another... 5 days. That sucks. Well news flash, I am getting married sooner than planned... way sooner than planned. But that is alright, I love him, none the less, and I am going to marry him anyhow, why not sooner right? Well, Enough about the wedding.

I can not wait till I get to see all my pcca baby's graduate! You are all my baby's I dun care what yall think! :) Damn I am moving away soo soon. And I will miss you all. Dana, Rachel, Brian, Austin, Kevan, Ally-popAsquat-Pavone! all of you are my baby's. Thanks for being there when I was piss drunk off my ass and couldn't walk. you are all great to me... even austin, I know you read this at times so I am talking to you my dear! I love you! *oh dear how sad, we're all leaving*

Prom is gonna be awesome! only 14 more days! mother-blee! *sigh*

Why do I constanly forget the ones I love? Do i forget them? Or do they dissapear without warning? Why is it that I get close with someone and they just.. forget I exist? Maybe one day I will find one of those, "stick around" people. Well.. besides Chris.. he kinda has to. Even though I am a terrible person, and a bad Fiancee, according to everyone. Oh well, I LOVE HIM.. Fuck YALL!

I really have to thank dana, Thank you for being there through everything.. including my 17th and 18th birthday parties.. haha. You really have been there for me through some bad times. Thank you for being my best friend. omg I love you more than words!

Well peace, I am done, my life is no more exciting than a race car driver's. We got ups and downs and at the end of the night.. we crash and burn!

<3 Kristen.. soon to be Kristen Cunnien!
I love you CHRIS
"A man's hand is only as warm as his heart."

CrAcKa LaCkA mUcH?

Fuckers@(0&#%^%@#@ [27 Mar 2004|09:30am]

last cigarette:last night
last kiss: 85 days
last good cry: ??
last library book checked out: pfft?
last movie seen: umm that thing you do
last book read: the book in english
last cuss word uttered: fuck?
last beverage drank: pepsi
last food consumed: chicken
last phone call: Chris
last tv show watched: Will and Grace
last shoes worn: Um…pink andwhite Etnies
last cd played: jessica Simpson ( as sad as that is)
last item bought: shirt from Hollister
last downloaded: I don’t know.
last annoyance: This morning reading my lj
last disappointment: knowing that Chris is going to be here for only 8 days
last soda drank: pepsi
last thing handwritten: a note to my mom
last word spoken: him
last sleep: last night/ this morning
last im: to travis
last weird encounter: steve
last ice cream eaten: umm at taylor's
last amused: last night watching a movie with my daddy
trippin on drugs? .....
last time wanting to die: 6th grade?
last time in love: now and tomorrow and tomorrow and the next.
last time hugged: my mommy
last time scolded: yesterday my mommy
last chair sat in: This one.
last lipstick used: my nutural clinguey shite
last shirt worn: a tee shirt last night .. my cow shirt..
last time dancing: thursday night
last poster looked at: i dunno?
last show attended: god forever ago
last webpage visited: livejournal.com.

1 MINUTE AGO: I was typing.
1 HOUR AGO: I was sleeping
1 DAY AGO: i was at the doctor with my mom
1 WEEK AGO: sleeping
1 YEAR AGO: i broke up with steve

current clothes: my new tilt undies.
current mood: upset
current music: nothing
current taste: EWWW
current hair: wet
current annoyance: my cramps
current smell: None
current thing I should be doing: getting dressed
current desktop picture: the pretty boy from all the mags he was tarzan in the t.v. show they cancled
current refreshment: nada
current worry: Chris and me
1. What do you most like about your body? my eyes
2. And least? My general fattness
3. How many fillings do you have?: 3
4. Do you think you're good looking?: ... I'll have my day
5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking? sometimes, depends on if I am wearing make up or not, and who it is. it is mostly my mom who says anything, no one else cares.
CrAcKa LaCkA mUcH?

Chris [27 Mar 2004|09:08am]
Chris will be here in 19 days and I am really happy about that! I can not wait to see him and be happy again. On the other hand.. steve isn't helping any. but that's another story. I am so happy chris will be home soon. But he is leaving the 23rd. so i only have a little time with him. But while he is here we are going to have wild monkey sex, for real.

OOOOOHHHHHHHH... just for you people who like to put your nose in my Fucking business. I would like it if you would talk to ME about your "problems" with my relationship with Chris. OK? DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT? because if you don't, I will find out where you are and make your life a living hell. Understand? thanks :)

other than people getting in my way I am doing fine. Man right now I am really angry! so I better calm down, smoke and drive around in my car. Damn it, if someone fucks up my relationship with chris, besides myself, I will be PISSED!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Chris I love you and you know that so whatever.

"shit, I forgot about SAT's!!!!!, 8:20, Oh well"
<3 Kristen
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